Here we are again, another monthly blog. This one is for my fifth month here. These last five months have gone by so fast. I remember arriving here in October and thinking “Geez April is a long ways away”. But it really wasn’t and I can’t believe that April is almost here. I feel like there’s still so much I have to do and see and learn and I haven’t had enough time here. I don’t think I’ll ever feel like I’ve had enough time here.
The last month has been an interesting one. We’ve had a lot of fun, we had the Texas team here. We took all the kids to the beach a few Saturday’s ago. We’ve had birthday parties, and evenings on the roof, and walks, and time together just playing. The kids and I collaborated on a skit for church that we spent over a week on, fixing it and practicing it until we got it just right. We’ve had a lot of sickness too, sick kids, sick Mama, and sick Mom. We’ve had some crazy days and long nights. Just to keep up with the day-to-day tasks can be challenging. Trying to complete Luc’s schooling, and fixing this, and bandaging that knee, and writing out this report, and assessing that kid, and paying this person, and recording that, gets overwhelming at times.
With keeping up with everything here, plus nursing everyone back to health, lack of sleep, and worrying about my own family back home, you would think that I would be stressed out, and upset, and worn out. But I have (amazingly) been doing well. I haven’t felt overwhelmed (all the time), or worried, or worn out. I usually fall into bed too exhausted to eat supper every night and I barely stop during the day, but God has been so amazing in the way He has sustained me. I have a t-shirt that says “All I need is a little bit of coffee and a whole lot of Jesus”. And lately I’ve been running on a whole lot of Jesus. Forget the coffee, I just need Jesus. That is the only way I would have been ever able to get through this time. All the troubles and trials and difficult days are completed only through Him. All the exhaustion and headaches and frustrations could only be dealt with through Him. He has been carrying me and comforting me through it all.
He gives abundant peace even when there is no understanding.
He gives strength when you think there is nothing left.
He gives comfort when the situation is hopeless.
He gives love when you feel alone.
He gives patience when you’re at the end of your rope.
He knows even when we don’t understand what we’re feeling.
He knows exactly what we need at the right time.
What a relief to know that we don’t have to have this all figured out, that we don’t have to know the future, and that we don’t have to fix everything. He’s already got it in His plans. We can take comfort in knowing that He has this all planned out, He already knows the future, and He’s got this.
I’m looking forward to seeing my family, I want to hug my Mom so badly. I will be sad to leave my Haitian family here but so happy to be back with my family in Canada to help with what needs to be done there. And I continue to pray that the peace and comfort I feel here, will follow me home, into the difficult situation that awaits me. Praying for peace, and resting in Him, because I know all I need is a whole lot of Jesus.
~Jocelyn
